Can't Catch a Break

A lot has been going on. Let me tell you. I feel like I'm THE emotional roller coaster herself.

Nathan is still here *happy dance*, but that's not the reason at all on why a lot has been going on. The Lord is doing some serious construction on my heart and sometimes it's so simple the way he communicates to us. Yesterday He sent a clear message of His unfailing and sometimes unruly love for me. Nathan's headaches had turned into "head trauma's" over the past week, and last Tuesday we had to spend the day in the ER. They prescribed him some painkillers and all was well, but you know head injuries-- so unpredictable and moody. Some days are great, other days it's like we've taken ten steps back. And yesterday was the worst pain he had ever felt since the hospital, so we rushed to the ER once more. This time instead of taking him back right away they made him wait in the waiting room, which was totally bogus to me. They are in the midst of doing construction on the hospital, so the jackhammer was kind enough to hypothetically drill a hole into the sides of Nathan's head, causing more pain.

We get back there and long story short, he receives a Spinal Tap, CT Scan, and they took some labs. All is well, he is doing fine:)

But there was one specific moment in time yesterday during all of this, that God caught my attention. No, not during the jackhammer's serenade. It was on our way to the hospital and, as always, I missed the exit because I had come from a different direction than last time. I'm apologizing to Nathan as he sits next to me in severe pain, and I just think to myself "I just can't catch a break...we just can't catch a break..." And not even a full minute later I see this:

Bam. My heart totally broke inside. He's working on my heart, he's working on my spirit. I can't catch a break, because there's roadwork the next few miles:)

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
James 1:2-4

~Laramie