Day two and I have to share. Because I can't even begin to explain the conversations that happen with the Lord when you go into prayer literally focused on Him. Guilty as charged, I am usually in prayer for me, or for someone else. Self.Ish. So, instead of trying to go back into the moment, this is my journal entry that immediately followed my conference call with the Most High. Cuh.Razy...
"This time was different than last night. I was brought to tears when the Lord caught me on something I had never wholly thanked Him for: taking care of me. He has always taken care of me. I remembered one conversation I had had with my mom and her response, in tears, was this: “He is taking care of you.” He brought this thought back to mind and I couldn’t help but cry.
“Thank you for taking care of me, thank you for taking care of me.”
Again, this prayer time went by much faster than it felt. I can literally feel my spirit enter into conversation with the Lord, as well as my mind go into worship. It’s like I’m aware of what’s around me, but I’m in another place inside. The Spirit feels heavy and I can feel that I am talking to the Lord. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever experienced; and to think, all I’m doing is thanking Him. But I never thank Him. I thank Him when I feel like I have something to be thankful for, but never when I know I have
There is definitely something to be learned in selfless prayer. It might be the part where we define "selfless" and let God do the talking. I always think of Elijah on the mountaintop waiting to hear from God. And the voice of the Lord comes in a whisper. How intricate, that voice of the Lord. When we go before Him ready to listen, we leave with more than we came with.
~Laramie
6 comments:
I'm thankful for God actually showing me the real person you are Laramie.... I would like my ring back now.You know..... the ring you have told nobody about?? You have completely deleted me from your life but you hold onto it why?
I am so sorry. I didn't mean to keep it from you, it's on its way soon. Please let me know if there is anything else that you need back from me.
I say this without malice, you do realize it has taken months to even get a sentence out of you as a form of a response....don't you? Tending to make me feel that you aren't sorry. I would just like to talk to you. See how you are doing. This is not an attempt to "win you over" I aimply feel like the Laramie i know didn't exist when im completley "shut out" im not trying to pint fingers of cause some huge deboggle. im just plainly stating that I miss my friend and I pray that you are doing well.
-Nathan
aimply = Simply
pint = point
(stupid keyboard)
I'm sorry Nathan, but we have nothing to talk about. Like I said, I will gladly return anything to you that you feel is yours. But our friendship is something that cannot be rebuilt.
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